I appreciate very much that you show courage and take action. And depression can be unreasonably debilitating. But may I suggest one small thing? Rather than "killing" the demon of depression, might you consider "taming" that demon. He carries some things, like seriousness and gravity, that are worth keeping.
But here are the two answers why some people are still here... Fear or hope(you don't tame them.. You learn to live with them) ☺
Depression is an illogical big dark bad.
This is so real! ✊🏿🔥
So Deep and true!